Exactly one month from now my daughter will be 4 years old and my husband and I will know if we are having a boy or a girl. :) <3

soup in bed thanks to my husband <3

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Vangloria on Etsy

I love you but you hurt me more than anyone and I know I do too. But I just want you treat me like you did before we knew I was bipolar. Because I’m not good at being in love and you’ve kept me longer than anyone but I give up easy and I really don’t want to this time.

Sometimes I wonder what life really is.

Sometimes I wonder what is the point?

Why? Why? do we do what we do?

Why do we try so hard to fit in, be happy, be loved, or be successful?

We all end up in the same place in the end.

We all end up dead, and we die alone.

When you  look at it that way should we really have fears at all?

We only have one life why not make the most of it?

Stop trying so hard to be perfect for everyone.

Stop worrying about money and big houses.

Live only on the bare necessities, travel the world, see its true beauty, and get out of the city.

Learn to love yourself, learn to love others, and learn to love the world.

That’s what life really is, its just been lost in money and fame, and what we are doing is no longer living.

This is not life.

So just travel and forget everything else.

Forget about computers, laptops, cellphones, and tablets.

And when some rich man calls you a bum and says get a job just shrug it off he is just ignorant and thinks the only riches are money and jewels.

So travel, love, and be fearless at least once in your life and then you can say you have lived.

We only have one life spending it worrying about how others see us or trying to fit the mold is just a waste of precious time.

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My husband and me.

PB&J. For me and my husband. <3

Paul Bean Jr & Jennie Bean (Davis)

When I was little my brothers used to call me Jellybean funny that I ended up marrying someone with the last name Bean especially because the nickname “Jelly” stuck with me through high school. So my mother now calls the two of us PB&J or Peanut Butter and Jelly. 

I met my husband Paul a month before we married. Its funny if it would of been someone else marrying someone they just met I would of laughed at them. I also thought I’d be alone forever I was actually ready for it. Paul asked if I’d like to grab some dinner with him, but since we never met I didn’t think of it as a date just meeting up seeing what the other person was like, I wasn’t looking for a date I just wanted a friend. Paul on the other hand thought it was a date and at the end kissed me goodnight, I was a bit shocked to say the least. The following days he text me all the time it was really sweet and super cute. The following Friday I failed my drivers test and when I told him about it he came straight over from work with my favorite pizza. Late at night I couldn’t sleep and was extremely bored so he came over all the way from the Valley to Thousand Oaks and we went on a drive he asked me to be his gf but instead of saying yes I asked if I could think about it first. We went to his friends house and talked for a few hours and then headed back to Thousand Oaks. We stopped at Dennys and ate some food and I asked him to ask his question again. He did and I said yes this time. I think it was only about a week after we had been dating when we were sitting in his hot tub and he looked at me and I could tell he wanted to say something but was a bit embarrassed. I told him to just say what you want to say and he said “I love you.”. He was the first person I have ever dated to say it to me first and I knew he really meant it. Its weird how in just a month I went from accepting being alone forever to meeting the man I’d be with forever. <3  

I was wandering around Target when I found the cutest tiny porcelain owl, I fell in love it was so damn adorable. I grabbed it off the shelf and carried it around the whole store while my husband and I finished our shopping. I was so happy with my owl, I kept telling my husband how cute and adorable it was. I couldn’t wait to get home and stick it in my planter. Finally we were home and the owl still hadn’t left my hand but when I walked into the kitchen I dropped it on the tile floor and it shattered into pieces. It was the weirdest thing the second I realized it was broken I started crying, balling my eyes out, and I couldn’t help it either. I knew how dumb I must look, I knew how silly it was to cry about something so simple breaking, but I couldn’t stop. My husband is so sweet he completely understood and didn’t think I was weird or anything, he hugged and kissed me and then went straight back to Target and bought me a new one. It was so sweet. 

“A ship inside a bottle can not sink, or collect dust. 

It’s nice to look at and floats on glass.

No one is small enough to board it.

It doesn’t know where it’s heading.

The wind outside won’t blow its sails. 

It has no sails, only a slip, a dress.

And beneath them, jellyfish.

Her mouth is dry though she’s surrounded by water.

She drinks it through the openings in her eyes which never close.

When she dies it won’t be noticeable. 

She won’t crash on rocks.

She will remain tall…and proud.

If you don’t kiss her on your way out, my love,

if you can, kiss me when you return.”

the first gif I ever made. Back when I was 15

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

This is my beautiful daughter.

HATE & LOVE are the same so you might as well LOVE